The following is a leter that was writen by a woman who attended a recent Rachel's Vineyard retreat in South Carolina. She terminated her pregnancy while in college, and although she moved on, got married, had a second child, and pursued a successful career, her abortion always sat on her conscience. This letter was shared on the retreat weekend, and she wants to share it with you now.

Dear Luke, We talked a lot this week. Your name came to me this past Monday while I was praying the Divine Mercy Novena and it made me smile: Luke Patrick - Luke, for St. Luke, the Church's physician and healer, because the Holy Spirit brought me to healing. Patrick for my patron saint, making us even more connected forever.

Throughout these years since I gave you to God I have thought of you and wondered about you. I would look at the night sky and wonder what you were like. I would look at the sunny sky during a day at the beach and wonder "What if?" You have heard me cry over the years, missing you and feeling such guilt and regret. But you know I could only have felt those emotions if I loved you ---and I do.

You have a half sister and I know you two would have been the best of friends. Please pray for her, she is my sunshine. Your grandparents are with you in heaven, Luke, and I hope Jesus has brought you to them. I cried so very many tears this week as I asked you over and over to forgive me. During this retreat I heard your sweet voice tell me that you already had. Well, now, my boy, I have finally forgiven myself. You are no longer a source of regret or shame or guilt or "what if?" You are no longer an anonymous being to me. From now on when I look to the heavens in the dark of night or the brightness of day you will see me smile and hear me say "Hello, Luke, I love you."

I pray that God grants me His divine mercy and forgiveness to allow me into heaven when my time comes. I know that I will know you right away. Be at peace, my son.

Love Always,

Mom